Its like you're my mirror

My life has been pretty eventful lately.

Two weeks ago I auditioned for Little Shop of Horrors at MCC. I wanted a do-wop girl.
Ya know, the black sassy girls who strut around stage.

I started feeling sick the day before my audition,and by audition time, I had lost a good amount of my range.

I got a callback for a do-wop girl, which was especially exciting because this production is with a director I've never worked with,so I felt like it was the first callback I really earned. But at the same time,harmonies terrify me,and that is all the do-wop girls do.

About two days before call backs, I literally start loosing my voice. While scratchy voices are sexy,they are not the best for belting.I was terrified to even talk. Side note: Singers keep ThroatCoat in business.


Anyway,by callbacks I had no voice. I told myself "Just show off your personality, they already know you can sing",


But I was so discouraged that I just gave an all around awful call back.

In the end, I was offered featured ensemble.


Which I have no accepted yet due to the fact I interviewed for the most bomb office job.


It is an office assistant position for a sales company.Most of their business comes from the east coast, so the afternoons get pretty dead (due to the 3 hour time difference). The boss told me "When it gets slow, you can just watch netflix or do homework." then he showed me the break room and said "You would be in charge of orders,so if theres anything you want, just order it. "

uhm,


I get netflix AND snacks.

And the pay is pretty.


He told me he would get back to me by Friday or Monday (May 6th).

Monday rolled around and I hadnt heard from him. Sean Ryan told me to do a follow up call and just see if a decision had been made. I told him I didnt think that was necessary, figuring it had already been determined and I just hadnt gotten the job. I called my dad and asked what he thought and my dad replied "Life gets busy.Call and follow-up,Say he hasnt made his decision,and you are the only applicant who does a follow up  call. That could be what gets you the job" I rolled my eyes and begrudgingly called. It went to voicemail and I left a message and thought nothing of it.

Tuesday I got a text message from the boss saying they had not made a dession,but I was still in consideration.


BOOM.



My dad is a smart person.
And I guess my boyfriend too...


Also, I have been watching 3 boys (10,6,1) for 3 days.


The baby. is perfect.
All he does is eat ,watch movies and sleep.
So, him and I get along great. He is basically a mini college kid.


I feel like the real deal. I drive them to extra-curricular activities,pack their lunch,do dishes. Im practically a single mom. Complete with the longing sense to be loved as well as the most fierce independence and protectiveness of my little babies.


Yesterday,we went out and came back and the main door was locked,which I had not done.
I got so protective.Imagine me busting in the house with zero fear, the only thought I had was to  protect my boys.

The mystery was never solved.




Yesterday I found out I am only 16-20 credits from an associates. Dang! I just have 2 bio classes,1 humanities class,and then math.

Oh math.

You wont treat me as bad as you did in high school. I'm a whole new woman.

The adviser set me up with classes for naturopathy,instead of dietetics, which is kind of the coolest thing ever. Actually being on that path is so exciting. Then he called me pre-med. And I felt like the most bad a b.


So. the current plan is- if i get the job,to take the job and either juggle the show,or online classes for summer semester.

If no job- take bio all summer and do the show.


Either way,its gonna be one eventful summer.

Do it right now.

The greatest realization I have had is that I have no idea of my own potential.