Oh lord, I still dont know what I stand for.

I love being a woman, cuz anytime you start acting crazy you can justify it by saying your on your period (even if you arnt.).


I used to try not to take advantage of it.


But now....



I use it a lot.



As I've already said, I dislike thurdays.
Cuz i have no friends in my health classes.
Even tho im trying to make some.
I think I made 3 today.
I'll take it.
And my hot teacher said "if a girl subscribed to that magazine, Id propose to her tomorrow."
Guess who has a new magazine subscription?
Even tho some girl told me he wont date former students.
Which obviously only leaves me with the choice of a face transplant and a new identity.
Today as all of us were leaving he yelled "Have a good weekend. Think of lots of data. Miss me!"
NONE OF THIS IS THE POINT.

Anyway, I had finally made it through thursday.
So i walk out to my car and try to start it. And it doesnt start.
So i figure its a dead battery.
Walmart auto already told me 2 months ago to get a new one.
BUT I AM SMARTER THAN YOU WALMART SO DONT TELL ME WHAT TO DO.

Anyway, so Taylor warns me it probably wont hold a jump cuz the thing is just kapoot.

But i decide i will risk it.
so i go and find a friend, she walks me to her car, and finds she has no jumper cables.
And then we go back inside, and then my teacher says she has jumper cables and walks me out.
And then we get to her car....no cables.
so then i decide i will just wait for my friend to gove me a ride home, then come back and replace the battery.
But, to save time, i figured Id try removing the battery and taking it home with me, so all id have to do is go exchange it and throw a new one in. (saving a lot of time and gas )
Remember all of this is taking place in 100+ weather and I've been walking all over the place trying to find this or that for 2 HOURS.
So i go to my car to try and teach myself how to remove a car battery....and I lock my keys in the car.



I can not tell you how many F words came out of my mouth.


Like, stuff like that only happens in the movies.



*exhales*

Finally, I give up on being self reliant and ask Taylor to come jump my car and escort me home.
Which he does because he is the best brother. He does it  even tho its his gas money and it would make him late for class and he had better things to do.


So i get home.
demoralized.
tired.
starving.



And i remember.....
I MADE MYSELF GLUTEN-FREE PIZZA LAST NIGHT AND I HAVE LEFT OVERS!!!!! YAY FOOD WILL SALVAGE MY AWFUL DAY.


I open the fridge....its no where to be found.



So when I say I am going to smash every belonging of the brother who ate it......I say it because Im on my period.

She'll bang bang bang bang bang anybody in her way.

As all my greatest blogs stem from,I am currently waiting for my air to dry.

I am resisting the urge to eat food.
I LOVE FOOD.

Today I was at a Glee Group (we will get to that later)
and this girl grabs her camera and records Taylor attempting to stretch and says "Im gonna put this on my daily vlog.":


WHY THE EFF DONT I HAVE A DAILY BLOG.


Cuz I have acne.

Man, it would be realty funny, or at least so-so.

DID YOU KNOW WE PLANNED A SURPRISE PARTY FOR NATHAN?


Neither did he.


Isnt that the dream?
A successful surprise party?



But I guess it wasnt enough for Nathan.
He still yearns for bigger things.
If it was me, Id be able to die happy right then and there.
But no, Nathan had ANOTHER party to go to.
Thats what happens when you've done 3 radio interviews.


I dont like Tuesdays and Thursdays because I have no friends in my Health classes and no one talks.
And so when I do try and talk, I get that awkward "I haven't spoken all day" voice
where you try to talk and then you have to clear your throat and everyone instantly hates you.
Its rough.
And everyone acts like they are too cool to answer questions...and so if you try and answer a question, everyone thinks your not cool.

I gotta keep up my street cred.


Tonight I went to a Glee Group at Counterpoint Studio and it was way enjoyable.
I LOVED IT.

Any time I am with friends preparing to or performing, I am overwhelmingly happy.
Even when I cant get the steps right, and I cant hear the harmony I am supposed to be doing.
Sometimes I will be driving somewhere, or sitting somewhere, and I think "Why am I so happy?" And then I remember its because all my time recently has been devoted to things I love, surrounded by people I enjoy.
Even on discouraging days, when I began to doubt myself.I simply take it as an expected step in the process and try to make it only motivate me further.

Rehearsal is going really well for My favorite Year.
I have so much fun in them and try to work really hard.
I feel like I have been well prepared.
Someday soon we should get scripts and that will be helpful.

You should come and see it, I will be there and we can say "Hi!"!


Its very jazzy and funny.
And that is all anyone wants in life.
Besides lots of cheese.




If you can tolerate cuss words and lesbians you should watch DRUNK KITCHEN on youtube.(I'd get you a link but Im so tired)
Not only does it make me laugh really hard.It also makes me a little attracted to women.

The other night I had a dream I was dating a transgender.
A boy to a girl.
I thought it was unusual that I was dreaming about a girl...but she started out as Andrew Garfield.
So I really dont know what I should take away from that.

I will explore both my love for Andrew Garfield and the idea that I might like girls.



Even tho Im pretty sure I dont.
I dislike boobs.

They bore me.

I just dont get it.
I really only want to be a lesbian so all my conservative friends would have to have to realize gay's are people too and not just some Chick-fil-a boycotting sinners who will all burn in hell.




Although I am attracted to Alexis.
She's my number 1.


When you started reading this blog, did you think it would get a little homo?


I didnt see this coming either.



What else do I have to tell you.


Sometimes people share my blog on their facebook, and then they are like "I am a creeper, sorry."
And Im like "No i liked it."

So dont feel bad if you want to show it to everyone (I know I hit my prime a while ago and have since gone steadily down hill. You can blame it on the fact I have no dating life)

Nathan just read this and said "You're so gay."
Thats offensive.
We dont use that word.



WAIT TILL I HAVE A VLOG.

I will be just like NAME THAT HAS LASERS





but totally different.



Im gonna let you in on a secret (uhm ,I dont blame you if you read this blog in 2 parts....its getting prettttty lengthy)


I am so attracted to father aged men.
I call it a "Dad Crush"

I havnt quite determined the definition of that phrase.

I may need to talk it over with someone who has lots of schooling, but anyway, the other day I was introduced to a married man who was very attractive, the salt and pepper type.This was over voice chat online (he's a friend of my brothers)
And me and Nathan start flirting with him.
And he goes and asks his wife (who is in the room) if Shes okay with him and Nathan hooking up.

....Even when a man is clearly married to a woman.....Cant see Nathan...Cant see me.....


THE MAN GOES WITH NATHAN.


Nathan is a witch.

But you don't breath, so you cant leave me.

WE HAVE SO MUCH TO COVER

School started on Monday.
I was outrageously happy.
I was ridiculously friendly to every one I met (including my future boyfriend) and I made a lot of new friends.
M W F are my performing classes  (Broadway solos, acting 1, MFY rehearsal)

As soon as I got to rehearsal, it was like every problem or worry in my life was gone.
I CANT EXPLAIN IT.
I LOVE TO PERFORM , I LOVE THE PROCESS.
Its funny, when Im in performing classes, Im like "I just want to be surrounded by performing my entire life"
But then when Im in my health and nutrition classes (T TH)Im like "I cant wait to get into this field and become a nutritionist and conduct studies and do sports medicine and save the world."

I have a  teacher who I am in love with.
Literally.
I just think about him and I rolling around on each other the entire hour.
Im not ashamed.
I sit in the front row every class.
He also smells good.

He is a huge nerd, and says everything in seconds, as opposed to minutes or hours or even weeks.
But he is hilarious.
Today he was showing us data (like he does every class, he calls it "sexy data") and he showed us some statistics from some study and said "When I saw those words, I literally got excited"
And I (correctly) assumed he meant sexually, so I burst out laughing.
He is ,for those of you who know him, an older hotter nerdier Mr. Epley.
And I am going to do to him, what I never did to Mr. Epley.
Mhmmm.
The other day he was going all crazy about a study, getting all hyped up and he was about to display the results of the study and he looks at me and says "You wanna see it? You wanna see it?"
I said to him "Yes please" big boy.
And he says" I could tell by that smile you wanted it"
Apparently he can read me really well.


So theres that.

I also have a nutrition class, the teacher is like a motherly high school teacher,who cant finish a sentence which is frustrating.But her class is my most interesting subject, and she is way qualified. She works with Lets Move and WIC and all kinds of nutrition organizations, and conducted a nutrition study and UC Burkley.
Also, she doesn't eat meat, and believes meat leads to many various diseases .
I AM 100% IN AGREEMENT.
But it is a very unpopular opinion with an odd amount of backlash.(people go CRAZY when you try to explain this)
As soon as she slyly mentioned her opinions on meat, I knew I liked her.


I picked up Nathan from the airport on Tuesday.
As soon as he was with me, it was like he never left.Except now there is an underlying element of overwhelming happiness and bliss whenever he is with me.



I had missed all of these things so much.
Performing, school, and Nathan

And as soon as they came back, it was like I had nothing to complain about.
Which I dont.




Here are some god songs for you.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=K-zZkbcF4fA&feature=related






http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qzObsfboaJ0

Cuz look at that pape with my face beamin

This very well might make no sense...cuz I'm pretty sure I'm cuttently typing in HTML. This blog is brought you by my phone,so be prepared for lots of typos and weird stuff. I am currently listening to Celtic women with my family as we drive to Las Vegas for my moms birthday. Little known fact,she's a gambler! But she pays me off to keep me uiet, so I don't complain. However no one is paying me to keep quiet about this Celtic music. My goodness. I HATE it. Monday I auditioned for MFY. I felt completely confident in my audition. I entered the room right, I stood on the right side of the piano, I gave the director a headshot of me with a bra on my head,I sang well, I shmoozed well. The one problem was that I had AWFUL availability to the point where I'd miss 4 of 6 shows. I was extremely discouraged and hated that i had to choose between performing and making decent money.(welcome to growing up) First of all, I Havnt even been given an official start date for my new job. BRITANEE YOU JUMPED THE GUN. SHOULDN'T HAVE QUIT YOUR JOB SO SOON ,FREAK. I actually don't regret quiting my job,oddly enough. That's a story for another time. So, I don't even know when I will be working. I try contacting my manerger, and can't get a hold of her. So I have no idea what to do, thinking either way I'm gonna miss out on a great oppritunity. So I'm out of my mind stressed. Litteraly, I could not sleep, I kept waking up worrying about it.for real, chest pains! Cut line a year offf my life Throughout this entire process I'd been asking a lot of advice from my dad. Seriously, that's how I've kept my sanity. I have been so gratefully to have him to turn to, because its the only thing that gives me relief. Side note: Uhm. A lot of people in my neighborhood have been dying....so every night I go to sleep I pray my parents won't die. When we got in the car to road trip, I even asked my dad what I need to do if they die. It was a really sad conversation but its necessary. Anyway,so my dad gives me some solid advice to go for the show,because that's an offer I know is on the table, and then to hash things out with my employer when that comes up. It's terrifying to be risking so much, but I decided to go with it. So I went to callbacks last night knowing I had some heavy competition,but I had a fighting chance. Lemme tell you, call backs were a FIGHT TO THE DEATH. We both knrw we were up against a lot. And we both BROUGHT IT. And I smacked Thor's butt. So it was a good night all around. I go home,awaiting the cast list that decides a lot for me. But it doesn't come. Jere says "go to sleep" I wake up today, no list ,no call. I'm dying to know. This was the first role I've ever had to "fight for"the first time I felt like I really stood on my own. First time I felt like I deserved it. Finally,the cast list is sent to me. Katie and I had been double casted. Fought to the death for nothing ;) Katie is a phenomenal performer and to be anyway close to her league is flattering. After 3 days of so much stress and indecisiveness, I will officialy be playing Alice Miller in MCCs production of My Favorite Year, along side my best friend Nathan, to mention a grip of other close friends. That is if I survive this gnarly desert rain storm I am currently driving through. Or this Celtic women soundtrack. Today, the pharmacist informed me my new insurance doesn't cover my acne face cream and my total was 150$. I literally started screaming.

Im on the right track, yeah Im onto a winner.

I have been on a gluten free diet since Tuesday.
Its pretty bomb.
Breakfast:
Gluten free cereal that is super delicious (that I ate a month ago in NYC without knowing it was gluten free. So everytime I eat it I am reminded of sitting in the most precious kitchen looking out the window at my precious city)
AND HAZELNUT MILK


Lunch:
Spinach and quinoa with cheese chunks and a balsamic vinaigrette. I ate this for like 10 meals straight and have yet to be sick of it.


Snack:
Nectarines and Cottage cheese
(If I wanted to plant a nectarine tree, what time of year would I do it??! Cuz Ive got quite the collection of nectarine seeds.)


Dinner:

Sausage , quinoa, and kale.
OR
SPINCHQUINOACHEESEVINEGRET
or
Pork and potatoes.(underwhelmed)


Snack:
Bomb gluten-free cookies from Sprouts
Or gluten-free snack bars from sprouts (WHICH HAVE CHIA SEEDS IN THEM.)

PAUSE:
Dude. Chia Seeds are crazzzzzyyyyy good for you. I purchase mine from WINCO . However, I lost my little sack of them I purchased in Idaho and haven't made the 80 mile trip to get some from the WINCO in PHX. Please dear lord let the WINCO by my house open soon. I am panting right now.
UNPAUSE



BRITANEE WHY ARE YOU DOING GLUTEN FREE?
YOU ARE SUCH A FOLLOWER/HIPSTER WHO IS ONLY DOING IT CUZ ITS COOL.
AND ITS NOT EVEN A GOOD PLAN, YOU GONNA BE MALNOURISHED.


I am doing a gluten free diet because there are links between gluten and cystic acne (MY ARCH NEMESIS.) and so Im trying to take care of all of that. I know a few people who have cut out gluten and seen results. So we will see.
Also, I feel really good physically since cutting it out and I've even lost weight.

Ooooot ooooooot.


Things I miss already:
Flour Tortillas.
end of list.


TODAY WAS MY LAST DAY OF WORK AT CINEMARK
whaddawhat?
I have worked there since I was 16.(that comes to 3 years, 2 months, and 1 day.)
So...to not work there is unfamiliar and odd.
It was sad leaving my little nest, and a lot of friends who helped me grow up and such. Especially my manager Ms. Parker, she was my rock, man.
And of course Ive been having really fun shifts lately so Im all sad Im gonna miss all the fun.
But normally there is only minimal fun.
There has been an abnormal amount of fun lately.

Last night I was telling one of my manager about my new job, and my NEW manager from Bank of America walks up to me to get her ticket torn.

SPOOOKKKYYY.


As scary as it is to leave and head off into the great unknown, I know its gonna be so good for me and its the right choice. Its actually odd how sure I am that Im doing the right thing,and Im in the right place.



I am currently eating chocolate covered almonds.

I wish Id gotten dark chocolate.


Monday is auditions for MY FAVORITE YEAR 
I am way excited, because its a show about comedy sketches and New York. (My hearts contents.)
Shows shows shows, I love shows


ALSO
Nathan will be home in 10 days.



wahooo.




I think thats all the exciting things I have to tell you

EXCEPT THE BULL STORY.


So, every time the high school gang gets in town, we go to the bridge to nowhere and have a late night dance party. Its TRADITION.and ridiculously fun.


We all meet up, get out and get ready to dance.
I look over into the darkness and see a big shadow that is never there and say "hey look a bear" to freak everyone out.

Until I look closer and am like...wait...that is for real something.....
So I get in the truck and shine my head lights on it





THIS BEAST IS LOOKIN BACK AT ME.



Dang son.
As soon as my lights flash on it, EVERYONE is back in their cars and speeding off.

He was a really cool bull, I dont know why everyone was so alarmed.


And that , kids, is the BULL DANCE PARTY ON THE BRIDGE TO NOWHERE.

There's change comin once and for all. You're getting too old, too weak to keep holding on.

HAPPY 100TH POST.


I wanted to post it on the anniversary of my first post ever (august 28th or something) but that is too far in the future.


I havnt posted a blog in forever, right?
My last post was about boys.
MMMMmmm.


I think God controls me through acne.


Sometimes he is like "Britanee, you are getting too cocky and too many boys want to hold your body, so Im gonna bring back your cystic acne."

Prepare for a 3 month boy hiatus.


Im gonna miss you, fellas.


I delayed writing this post because I wanted it to be a big monument of how far Id come in the last year since my first post ever.
However, nothing monumentous had happened.
I was having this weird like.... quarter life crisis.
Because I am now signed up for classes specialized to my degree and its the real deal and im at a place where i need to decide what Im gonna do with my life (which isnt true. I have lots of time)


So i didnt write a blog.


Because I was all stressed out.

And i didnt want to have nothing to show for a whole year.

Remember my papsmear post?
Im such a goof.
I GOT ANOTHER ONE TODAY.


DUN DUN DUNNNNNNNNNNN.

Piece of cake.
Im crackin jokes the whole time.
Laughin.



Thats what happens when you grow up.

Speaking of growing up.

I got a sweet job at Bank of America as a Mortgage servicing specialist.

ooott ooooot.


Its fancy.


Remember my new year resolutions?


2012 NEW YEAR RESOLUTIONS.

• be respectful to my mother
• unconditionally love everyone i meet.
• include people, be friendly.
• forgive people (in particular)
• talk to God more often (in progress) 
• do more things that terrify me.
• stay in touch with high school friends
• be proud of the person I am at the end of the year.
• make necessary money 

How are you doing with yours?



Thats right.


Im so much better than you.



Add BE HELLA CREATIVE to that list.



I just want to create everything, music, paintings, sculptures,performances, pinterest shizzz, im about to just tear shiz up just to rebuild it.



I love late night "I CAN DO ANYTHING" jolts.



You know what Im so excited for?


To see this little squirt tomorrow (slash its today)










That is her on new years eve.


And they say college kids are bad....

Have you ever seen a kid and thought "I get why people kid nap kids"








Some days, you just have to accept you are a big deal.
That is my wisdom to you.
And also.
Stand up for what you believe in.


Yeah.
This is getting deep.




SECOND YEAR OF COLLEGE LETS GO.


GROWN UP JOB LETS GO



pause:
Also, add "learn how to turn guys down"


Guys are always like "whats your number?" "we should hang out"

And im like.....errrm....uhhhh.


AND I GIVE THEM MY NUMBER


CUZ I DONT KNOW WHAT ELSE TO DO.



Next time I turn a guy down, I will for sure let you know.

Although, now that my face is ripping apart, it may be a while before I reject a boy.



MY CONFIDENCE COMES FROM WITHIN.


SLASH  everyone should take what this article says to heart
http://www.metro.us/newyork/sports/article/1148979--what-if-every-olympic-sport-was-photographed-like-beach-volleyball


To my readers.

Be strong.

Do impressive things.



To quote the cutest girl in the world




"Bless"