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BRITANEE WHAT THE FRICK IS HAPPENING IN YOUR LIFE YOU NEVER BLOG, AND YOU ARE POSTING REALLY CONFUSING STATUSES ON YOUR FACEBOOK ABOUT YOUR JOB AND SCHOOLING LIFE.




I haven't blogged in foevs.



Im a pretty bussy girl.
Not so much now...
Which I LOVE and hate at the same time.


Ill just jump right into it even tho I am pretty spastic right now (I just read Kaylie's post on her blog  [which i heart] and it made me remember I have a blog too)

Hold on , lemme go read the last post I published.


oh that one.

It was a good one.
But it didn't really say anything about my current state in life.



Alright.
SO.


Do you have a job do you not?

No.
I dont.
I have had 3 job offers in the last 5 months...and they have all fallen through.
Due in large part by me.

I gauge my self worth on my independence, which I pretty much have none of right now. So thats been rough.


So, getting a job has been on the list of things to do.

I changed my major from strength nutrition and personal training to an associates in science, which will set me up for all the Dietetics classes at ASU (barf, but I cant worry about that right now)


So, I singed up for all thees hard science classes (also known as chemistry) that were to start on January 14th
I figured Id find a part time job, and go to school, and do Yes to the Arts  , and find time for homework and the occasional squeeze of my boyfriend.

WHO I NEVER TALK ABOUT ON HERE CUZ IM SO FREAKIN BUSY.
What ever.
I love his guts.
There, just saved you a whole 4 paragraphs.


So.
the 13th of January, I go to look online at what room my classes are in and stuff.

And what did I find?
YOU ARE NOT REGISTERED FOR ANY CLASSES.


Curious.


Coulda sworn I was.


Turns out you have to click some final button i never clicked.


cuteeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee


So, of course the day before classes start, there are no classes left.
With Tayors help, I got 2 online classes that go towards my degree.


Online classes terrify me.
So far, I ....am....doing...ok.
Facebook is in the computer. And so are my classes. But no humans.

Its rough.
I like humans.

So now I wake up...and Im like....time to go to.....
uhm....my living room.


My main goal is just to stay productive no matter what.
So far I am doing good at it (day 2)


But its gonna be hard. Cuz I love naps.

Its weird because when I saw I wasn't signed up for classes I started panicking.
And then like 15 minutes later I had an overwhelming feeling that was exactly what was supposed to happen.
I have this really weird confidence Im going to get an awesome job and be able to juggle all things and its going to be great.

That and my best friend is moving from 50 miles away to 2 miles away.
And she is moving into my other best friends house, with my second mother who I love so much.

It was kinda perfect.



This school year has been nothing at all what I envisioned.
Literally nothing.

But....Im growing up pretty hard.

Despite not being a grown up.



Ok so other than that, lemme think of fun things that have been happening.



I have very much a college life.
I go see independent movies with my boyfriend
and then we go to sushi with our friends.
and then I take day trips with my best friend to flagstaff
and then I work my butt off at some random class
and then I go rock climb with my boyfriend who's body is obnoxiously attractive(he climbs with his shirt off) and sometimes causes me to spontaneously think "He's out of my league" but hes not.
and then I audition for the school improv troupe.(i dunno if im in or not)



Growing up is so weird.
There is the kind where you dont notice it, like all through junior high and high school and then in college its so evident it makes you stutter when you talk about it.
Seriously, its like the equivalent of mental growing pains.
You just mature so fast , even you are surprised by it.
There are moments when Ill just stop and think "Holly crap, this is what its like to grow up"

there is outrageously hard and scary things, and there are liberating and exhilarating things.
Its enjoyable even when its not.


Honestly, there are days I go to sleep knowing things about myself I had no idea of  when I woke up.




Anyway, thats my life.
Its frazzeled.
But i like it lots.